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Healing of Emotions – My Recent Experience

 

 

We are in continuous need of emotional healing in our lives.

 

Some times even when we think that we have mastered some of the hurdles in our lives, it can let you know that you have not arrived. Here I write about an issue with fear, panic and nerves.

 

Recently we were invited to go and do a Friday night meeting with a sister who lives in Virginia. She lives in the mountains; so I said to myself I can drive and be a part of this. This would help me get out and see somewhere else other than Winston Salem.

 

I had made up my mind to drive and if anyone wanted to ride that was even better. She informed us that the meeting would not be far from where she lived.

 

Well on this particular evening I was excited and ready to go. It was only an hour’s drive away; I said to myself I could do this. There were several cars following each other as we began to line up and leave. As expected the drive was proceeding along, trying to do a little sight seeing as were leaving Winston Salem and the different cities before entering Virginia.

 

There was level land even as we entered Virginia. There was a catch in this in that slowly my driving started going upward and rounding curves causing my car to begin to drag. I had to speed up to catch up with the other cars because I was in the rear. Still driving I said seems like we are going up a mountain. My passengers said that is where the meeting is going to be. I said no she said it was not to far from where she lives and my passengers said she really lives up in the mountain area.Here is where my problem begins:



Driving right along, following the other cars in and out and up and around was the beginning of the mountain. Fear began to rise up in me, but I did not immediately let my passengers know I was afraid. I kept driving up and around until I had no choice but to speak out that this is beginning to make me nervous. I had some really trusting passengers, saying just drive. I had to, there was nowhere that I felt comfortable enough to pull over and let some one else drive. I had to proceed onward, fear and panic and nerves were getting the best of me but on I went driving along. I had to talk in order for me to drive and calm myself down.

 

I am sure that I was causing them to become nervous also. But thru it all I was in the drivers seat and had to muster on. I said when are we going to get to our destination. They said just drive, so I know that they must have been afraid too, but did not want me to know.

 

So on and around, up and around I drove. All the while praying that we would hurry up and get to our destination. I asked how long had we been driving, because I was too fearful to do anything but focus on my driving. All the while going up and around that mountain there was no one behind me until we pass the place where we were suppose to meet our host and she would lead us in. Finally we were at the gate and could not get in because she was behind me of all the drivers, racing to get to the gate to let us in. I had to calmly move over and let her thru. This was not a good feeling at all, but some how I managed. Once thru the gate, we continued up that mountain until I saw level land.

 

"Oh what a relief that was!"



Then our host turns and goes down and around again. I prayed Lord help me to make it. A little ways away I saw the firm foundation of the building and parking area that was our destination. I said to myself this has got to be the place and it was. Now I could breathe and absorb my surroundings. I got out of the car quickly because I was in need of a good stretching and bending.

 

Here I had to deal with my fears. You know I really did not think about going, I just did, but fear and panic entered in. I made it thru, but I know that I would have to do this on a consistent basis in order for me to overcome it. I like the mountains, and will make the adjustment in traveling this route again.

 

Fear is not who I am and I know that. But as I said I have not arrived, that it does not intrude and tries to cause me to go and do the things that I must do in my everyday life.

 

Now that I look back I can see I had nothing to worry about. I made it safely and returned on level land safely.

 

Myrtle McNeil